Awareness is light. The simple act of noticing an emotion, thought, or habitual reaction is enough to transform it from something that controls you to something that does not. Lets say you get angry when you are cut off while driving. Then you begin to notice, observe, and witness your reaction. You mentally take a step back and see it happening from a distance almost like looking at a memory or feeling like you’re remembering it while it is happening. You’re not trying to stop it at this point, you’re simply observing what is going on; seeing your reaction to the action.
But who is observing? Who is noticing? If you become aware of the aspect of your consciousness that is noticing your behavior you will be in touch with your larger consciousness. That in itself is a transformation. As you get more familiar with this larger consciousness your habitual reactions will have less influence upon you, some will just cease without you trying to stop them. You will experience more peace.
Observing your thoughts, feelings, sensations, emotions, and reactions avoids denial, and the openness is a form of grace. You effortlessly become the calm center. You become the truer you. That statement is a little tricky, because all parts of you are true, but there is a temporary you and your soul. It is trickier still to accurately call the soul eternal because it is constantly changing and evolving and in that way the soul is not permanent. But for now just know that the simple act of awareness allows you to begin to operate from more of your spirit.
Sometimes people say they feel like time is passing them by; that their life is moving without their enjoying or participating in it. Yet it is we who are not giving attention to the parts of life that make us feel alive and causing this perception. Humans created the concept of time to give us reference points along the continuum of our existence, but it had become more than a way of organizing or structuring our activities, it has become our master. The good news is that the simple act of recognizing time as a conceptual framework rather than the parameter to which our lives must conform, allows us to begin to master life.
People used to say, “Give yourself time,” recognizing that breathing room is needed. Most of us today are bathed in breath constricting anxiety. We feel crushed by the pressures of work, finances, and family and the major complaint about it all is we don’t have enough time. Realistically, if we take a step back, take a breath to gaze at life from a distance, looking more slowly as a way of giving ourselves more time, the broader vision will help us clearly see that there is enough time. There is almost always enough time, but we have been trained to use it unwisely. How? By greedily thinking that the more we do, the more we accomplish, the more we have, the more alive we are.
The wise use of time could begin by listening to our own complaints. For instance, if you want more family time then figure out what time consuming activity could be cut back on like watching television, playing video games, Facebook or other “social networks”, and use that time to spend with family. Or by cutting back on the activities that don’t enrich us or make us feel alive. Or by slowing down and giving more awareness to what we are doing without feeling pressured by the next thing we feel we need to do.
Many of our activities are habitual and reflexive rather than mindful. Mindfulness simply means being aware of what you are doing at the moment; it means not dividing your consciousness and yourself into a million mental pieces. Think about the way you gaze and someone you adore. Your focus of attention is complete yet not tight, both your heart and intellect embrace them; this heart and intellect focus of attention is mindfulness. When gazing at someone you adore you don’t want to moment to end, you want time to stand still so you can continue the connection. Divine awareness sees the whole of life and creation is this way, like a lover adoring the beloved, or like a parent watching their child, time loses its grip, your heart and intellect are present and you feel alive. You are present with time and neither you or time are passing each other by.
We know time is relative, in this way it is mailable, but that doesn’t mean we can get it to conform to our will. It is the modern way to try to get more and more done in less and less time. It’s not time that creates pressure but the attempt to put more into the same space. Any vessel over filled will either over run or burst. We are the vessel, the ones over flowing or breaking. Another way to see it is the faster you go the more the scenery blurs, the more the scenery blurs the less details you notice, the less details you notice the less fulfilling the experience. Attempting to compress time becomes wasted experience. By squeezing more into the same measure of time sacrifices savoring the experience. Its like wolfing down a meal to satisfy hunger rather than being mindful and enjoying the taste of the meal.
Rushing is motivated by the fear of not having enough time, and the sense that we must bend to fit time instead of the other way around. By not respecting time we lose respect ourselves and each other. We want more time from others, rather than appreciate the time we have. We categorize the commodity of time in ways such as quality time, time out, my time, your time, their time, work time, play time, over-time, and wasted time. The hubris of trying to over power time rather than harmonize with time is signified by the sickness of stress.
What if we respected time, respect its boundaries, and thereby respect our capacity to work within time? If we could we would respect ourselves because time is an measure we designed. Humans created the concept of time just as we created the concept of borders. Yet many people feel time and borders control us. If we could respect time it would seem to change, but the reality is it would be us who are transformed. What if we thought of time as a quality rather than a quantity or commodity? Instead of work time it would be purpose time, or instead of mommy and daddy time or family time it would be loving time, and then maybe we would see time as a precious. Maybe we could savior it rather than gorge ourselves like starving animals.
There is a deeper level of called the timeless. It is the awareness of the relativity of time. It is the decision not to frame all of life, but instead to liberate it from concept and experience the timeless. It’s not really new to us. As infants we had no concept of time. Seconds, minutes, hours, days, weeks, months, years, and eons had to be learned. It is possible to recall not having a sense of time. Try it. Try to recall an experience you had before you were taught to measure life. It will liberate you. You will no longer be a slave to the measure or comparison of time.